Sunday, February 22, 2009

It's the one thing that I've known.

I should never think

what's in your heart,

what's in your home

So I won't...



So you hold off

when you should hold on.

That's the one thing that I've known.



Once I put my coat on

I'm coming out in this all wrong

She standing outside holding me

Saying oh please

I'm in love

I'm in love



Girl save your soul

Go on save your soul

Before it's too far gone

And before nothing can be done

Cause without me

You got it all

So hold on

--Robert Pattinson: Never Think.

If the movie He's just not that into you taught me anything it's this: I think girls are always the ones to put their whole heart into anything. Not that it's something to be ashamed of, but with our hearts on our sleeves we venture out into this "unknown"-- overthinking.

Rob Pattinson, God bless his soul is one good-looking guy-- shoutout to my Twilight homies haha :). But seriously, this song makes me love him so much more because he's kind of telling girls what they need to know. He's like a walking cover of Cosmpolitan:"Ten things you HAVE to know about guys!" But really this is what he's trying to say-- girls: STOP OVER-THINKING. All we girls do is think. Wonder what he feels in his heart, wonder where he feels like home... i know, i know you all are asking why wouldn't I think about this stuff? My heart is in this!

Well here it is, the truth. While you're out there putting your heart on the line... most likely he is holding off. For something better? maybe. Does he not like you? It's possible. But even if he does, guys have this weird fear I think, moreso than girls, of the uncertainty of their feelings and desires. They're like indecisive, A.D.D., carnal-driven (shout-out to Joann) species that never are quite sure of what they want, and even if they are: they're more likely to hold off and wait it out-- no rush right? and thenn...

What do us heart-sleeving girls do? we stand out in the rain, saying "Oh please- I'm in love!" We're holding on, knuckles clenched tightly around that one guy we can't let go of.. Yeah, major frustration sets in... We're the ones in love, they're the ones holding off. We're the all-or-nothing they're the well... maybee... is there something better out there?

Enter Rob Pattinson's message: Girl, Save your soul. Without me you've got it all, so hold on.

Basically this is what we have to do. If you're stuck on a guy, just let it go and save your soul. Either he's not the one, in which case you dont' want to waste your time with him anyway. or if he is...it's not the right time. Just hold on. No matter what, one of two things will happen
1. He'll realize you're worth it
2. You'll realize he isn't.

And no matter what happens, in the end your soul is saved if it's in the hands of the only one who is mighty enough to save-- Jesus <3

Saturday, February 21, 2009

I'll take your words along with me...

Maybe one day they will mean something.

For now, they buzz and crumble down
A little bit too easily
From a time that I am not quite over,
what the hell is wrong with me.

I might be gone a little while,
I guess we'll see
I've gotta make a home out of somewhere,
and you're all over this city.
And it will take a flight to figure out
where i'm going to finally land
And by the time it takes for me together
it'll be time for me to start again.
And if the plane lifts off,
I'll write you a letter
To say goodbye.
And I will make it long and maybe lie just a little
tell you that i'm doing fine
And then i'd send it out and let things be
If not for you, for me and for the time I'd spent
foolishly loving thee.

Greg Laswell-- The One I love.

Greg Laswell is one of my favorite artists. There is just something about the honesty in his lyrics and the sad timbre of his voice. Sad but wise. Like he knows all the ins and outs of his heart. Maybe I like him so much because I'm envious of him... I've only had several instances where songwriting has helped me understand my own heart, rather than trying to understand my heart previous to writing a song. This song is on his 3rd album Three Flights from Alto Nido, released in August 2008. A good amount of time after his break-up with Mandy Moore, so one can assume that every heart-broken song on this album is about her. His only comment about this song in his interview/live session with Day-Trotter was that it was about "breaking up". Candid? I think not... there's no doubt how much mandy was "all over this city". and how difficult that must have been for his heart... although ironically rewarding for his inspiration as seen through the sheer brilliance of this album.

What I've learned from this song:

1: Don't date a celebrity; you can't get away from them, especially in Los Angeles.
2: sometimes you need to "take a flight to figure out where you're going to finally land",and that's okay. Don't hold on to things you need to let go of. Be free. Me and my roommates created a "Let Go, Let God-- No More Worries Wall" where we posted the things we need to give to God fully and let Him have His will in every situation. Whatever works for you, sometimes the very things we hold onto are the exact things God wants us to let go of.
3: It's okay to be unsure of why you're running from the one thing that you want. Life is full of uncertainties, but the most important thing is that you don't run away from yourself. Know your heart and hold fast to hope, it's what gets us through.