Saturday, February 21, 2009

I'll take your words along with me...

Maybe one day they will mean something.

For now, they buzz and crumble down
A little bit too easily
From a time that I am not quite over,
what the hell is wrong with me.

I might be gone a little while,
I guess we'll see
I've gotta make a home out of somewhere,
and you're all over this city.
And it will take a flight to figure out
where i'm going to finally land
And by the time it takes for me together
it'll be time for me to start again.
And if the plane lifts off,
I'll write you a letter
To say goodbye.
And I will make it long and maybe lie just a little
tell you that i'm doing fine
And then i'd send it out and let things be
If not for you, for me and for the time I'd spent
foolishly loving thee.

Greg Laswell-- The One I love.

Greg Laswell is one of my favorite artists. There is just something about the honesty in his lyrics and the sad timbre of his voice. Sad but wise. Like he knows all the ins and outs of his heart. Maybe I like him so much because I'm envious of him... I've only had several instances where songwriting has helped me understand my own heart, rather than trying to understand my heart previous to writing a song. This song is on his 3rd album Three Flights from Alto Nido, released in August 2008. A good amount of time after his break-up with Mandy Moore, so one can assume that every heart-broken song on this album is about her. His only comment about this song in his interview/live session with Day-Trotter was that it was about "breaking up". Candid? I think not... there's no doubt how much mandy was "all over this city". and how difficult that must have been for his heart... although ironically rewarding for his inspiration as seen through the sheer brilliance of this album.

What I've learned from this song:

1: Don't date a celebrity; you can't get away from them, especially in Los Angeles.
2: sometimes you need to "take a flight to figure out where you're going to finally land",and that's okay. Don't hold on to things you need to let go of. Be free. Me and my roommates created a "Let Go, Let God-- No More Worries Wall" where we posted the things we need to give to God fully and let Him have His will in every situation. Whatever works for you, sometimes the very things we hold onto are the exact things God wants us to let go of.
3: It's okay to be unsure of why you're running from the one thing that you want. Life is full of uncertainties, but the most important thing is that you don't run away from yourself. Know your heart and hold fast to hope, it's what gets us through.